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ALOT OF THE TIME HAVING A BIG SISTER WAS GREAT...OKAY, OKAY I WOULDN'T SAY ALOT OF THE TIME. AT LEAST NOT UNTIL WE GOT OLDER AND MOM LET ME HANG OUT WITH HER AND HER FRIENDS SO THAT I COULD "KEEP AN EYE" ON HER! LIFE SEEMS TO BE ONE BIG CIRCLE AND PAYBACK IS GREAT! WELL, I GUESS I SHOULD START FROM THE BEGINNING...THERE WAS THIS BOY - WHO SAW THAT COMING?!!? HE WAS OUR NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR AND WE BOTH HAPPENED TO HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM. MY SISTER, NOELLE, IS TWO YEARS OLDER THAN ME AND AT THE TIME CONSIDERED ME A LITTLE PEST I'M SURE. TO ME, SHE WAS THE OLDER MORE POPULAR, CONFIDENT ONE. I BELIEVE AT THE TIME SHE WAS 13 AND I WAS 11, DIFFICULT AGES TO BE FOR ANY GIRL! A GROUP OF US WOULD ALL HANG OUT AFTER SCHOOL, ALL THE GIRLS IN MY FRONT YARD ON ONE SIDE OF THE FENCE AND "THE GUY" AND HIS BUDDIES IN HIS FRONT YARD ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE FENCE. SOUNDS PRETTY INNOCENT, RIGHT? WELL THAT WAS UNTIL NOELLE, BEING THE CARING BIG SISTER THAT SHE WAS DECIDED TO PANTS ME IN FRONT OF EVERYONE! YEP, YOU GOT IT RIGHT...SHE PULLED MY PANTS DOWN TO MY ANKLES FOR ALL TO SEE!!! AS IF AT AGE 11 YOU DON'T FEEL AWKWARD ENOUGH AROUND BOYS ALREADY- OR ANYONE FOR THAT MATTER! SO EVERYONE GOT A BIG LAUGH OUT OF IT, EVERYONE BUT ME OF COURSE! I RAN INSIDE THE HOUSE CRYING (WITH MY PANTS STILL DOWN I MIGHT ADD!) WHICH ONLY MADE ME LOOK LIKE A CRYBABY AND ADDED TO MY HUMILIATION! AND I BELIEVE THE NEXT DAY MY SISTER ALSO GOT A KISS FROM THE BOY NEXT DOOR!! THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME FEEL ANY BETTER WAS CONVINCING MYSELF SHE ONLY DID IT OUT OF JEALOUSY...IT TOOK ALOT OF CONVINCING! ALL IN ALL, I'M SURE I LEARNED SOME LESSON FROM THAT SITUATION, I'M JUST NOT SURE WHAT IT IS YET AND THAT WAS ALMOST 19 YEARS AGO! I CAN NOTE THAT TODAY HER AND I ARE GREAT FRIENDS AND I STILL ADMIRE HER AS MUCH AS I DID BACK THEN. BUT, DO YOU THINK PLACING 13 YEARS BETWEEN MY DAUGHTERS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THAT AWFUL DAY BACK WHEN I WAS 11? JUST A THOUGHT...